Saturday, May 18, 2013

My experience with the Subtle Mind exercise was so much better than the Loving Kindness exercise.  If you read my post with my feedback on the Loving Kindness exercise you know that I did not enjoy it and it gave me uneasy feelings when we were instructed to breath in our loved ones and others suffering.  I did not want to bring pain and suffering into my body.  I understood where they were going with this but I don't agree with how it was done.  I felt like I was being forced to focus on negativity instead of being instructed to focus on positive, loving thoughts and feelings.  However, the Subtle Mind exercise was nothing like that previous experience.  I was impressed with myself that I was actually able to be pretty successful with this exercise.  It was getting late in the day when I listened to the exercise which is naturally time to wind down because it's close to bedtime.  I turned off the lights, closed the door in my room and had one candle lit.  So with a calm and relaxing time of day plus atmosphere I was creating a successful environment.  I began to listen and I found it easy to concentrate on my breathing.  Yes, I had some occasional thoughts and images that appeared in my mind as expected but I was able to notice them and return to my breathing.  As I eased up on the grip of my breath and told to become more of a witness to my mental activity I visualized in my mind exiting my body and looking over myself like you would look at a picture of yourself.  As any random thought entered my mind I was able to acknowledge it and return back to my breathing.  As I listened to the ocean waves I imagined myself in my favorite place to relax- the beach.  As I relaxed 'on the beach' and felt calm and peaceful focusing on my breathing and it felt like the moments just before you go into a deep sleep and i consciously kept myself awake with my eyes closed. I was so relaxed that every time the lady began to speak it startled me. 

The connection of my spiritual wellness to my mental and physical wellness is obvious to me.  As I concentrate on relaxing, peacefulness and quieting my mind, it clears my mind up of busyness and noisy mental chatter which makes my mind healthier and with my mind being healthier brings healthiness to my body since our body follows the mind.  This is important for me to work on in my personal life because if I allow things that upset me 'get to me' then I am only hurting myself with possibly creating premature disease within myself.  I need to practice daily the witnessing mind so to avoid 'knee-jerk' actions.

2 comments:

  1. Hi Kristine,
    Glad to hear you had a relaxing and pleasant experience with the subtle mind exercise. I think the beach is a great focal point, one I tend to use quite often when I meditate. I think we are realizing the many beneficial aspects of these exercises. The witnessing mind is a work in progress for me too. I think most of us have times when things overwhelm us and we speak without thinking. My mom always taught me to take a deep breath and think twice before you say something because "words are like feathers, once you release them you can't take them back." Some great words of wisdom!!
    Good job with your post.
    Angie Giannavola

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  2. Hello Kristine,
    You already know we felt the same way about the meditation! But I wanted to comment on your last paragraph of this post. It really is each of our personal responsibility to clear our mind and protect ourselves from stress and the disease it will allow in. I really enjoyed reading your blog post and your ability to put into words some of what I was feeling. I hope this week treated you well! Blessings, Audrey

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